1 more paper left.

I'm dead as in dead tired after today's SS paper and dead for next week's mathematical modelling. I don't know how I'm going to finish within 3 days but I have to. Fml. I hate this module so much.

Had Korean bbq with Daph and JY after our SS paper (I heard some girl ask her friend "Who is Sang Nila Utama" and I turned to look because I couldn't fathom why someone was asking such a question, especially after studying the history of Singapore from Temasek days). The paper was doable I guess. I brought in a container of seeds and nuts because I thought I was going to have zero-minimal content for 3 essays but I managed to churn them out so I'm glad and thankful for that ++bbq and watched Hunger games, pretty good way to end the paper. Then I met Justin for a short while and my friends finally get to see him (not my imaginary boyfriend).

So since the Korean bbq was brought forward, I think we're going to a museum next week hahahhaha It's a showcase and commemoration of 700 years of Singapore history.

6 more days before flying off! I just checked the calendar and realised I have 4 days to study. Ok that's one day better than 3 days but still...... I need all the luck I can get.

These two papers will go by really quickly

Because my thoughts are everywhere now (Temasek, Raffles, Riau, Correlation, Sharpe ratio, One-fund theorem, Capital Market Line, CAPM >,<)

• I'm taking my first paper tomorrow!!! Still unsure if I should continue to add more stuff into my help sheet because I'm allowed to fill up to 8 pages this time but I have like maybe 5 pages of formulas and notes as of now. Then again, I might not even have the time to flip through my help sheets to read whatever examples I printed on them so maybe I will just try to remember them when I revise tomorrow. So thankful for summary notes the prof uploaded for us because that saved me quite some time in trying to compile my help sheets.

• Woke up at 7am then went back to sleep and woke up again at 8.30am because I wanted to try to get more work done. I will try to sleep at 12 so that I can do the same for tomorrow. My plan is clock about 5-6 hours of revision for Finance before sitting for the paper.

• Today was pretty much productive, probably because I went to school to study with Amanda and I satisfied my craving for banana milkshake.

• Can't wait for my post-exams plans. I'll be meeting JY for korean bbq after our last paper then off to Malaysia the next day for a week - I booked my tickets without telling my mum so... I guess I'll have to tell her this Friday (?)

• Reading up and consolidating some notes for SS now because I think I will be too tired after tomorrow's finance paper to study that much for Thursday's paper.

It's Friday already

I went back to school twice during this recess week - Tuesday with JY and Thursday with Amanda and I guess it was rather productive, definitely way more than whatever I would have accomplished at home. I'll most probably spend Friday at SMU, later in the morning/afternoon (hopefully morning so I can clock more hours of studying) then I'll probably watch Interstellar (for the second time) with Justin (but that's ok because I like the movie and I didn't watch it with him the first time).

I don't feel very prepared for my papers despite having read all the chapters for SS and for finance sigh Will persevere for these 2 weeks then we will be off to Penang yay

Playing favourites

Favourite is one of those words I find pretentious and insincere. It's been overused to the extent that I don't see how is it a compliment to someone being called a favourite and anyway, favourite lasts for only that long until the caller finds a new favourite then favourite falls off its pedestal so how is being somebody's favourite a good thing when that position/title can be taken away from you so easily.

These days people throw out compliments so freely they don't even seem sincere anymore. Everyone receives "gorgeous" in their comments and then they will reply something like "no you are way gorgeous" to everyone who calls them that so.. I don't know how much they meant their compliments. I mean, you can always just be polite and say thank you to somebody who compliments you but to throw a compliment back to every one who compliments you, how real is that?

Just random thoughts. Anyway, Justin is finally back so I'm going to the airport in an hour :D

I need my diary now

I think I need a "Dummy's guide to communicating your thoughts effectively"/"How to say what's on your mind without aggravating a situation 101"

I spent my entire Sunday trying to finish updating all my mathematical finance notes, did some tutorial, read Gone Girl. It wasn't much fun.

Not exactly my kind of a good day. Here's hoping for a better tomorrow.

Recess week is here

The semester is finally coming to an end. I enjoyed maybe 2 out of 4 modules with my most hated one being Mathematical modelling but well, I still have to study the paper. I liked my physics module on studying the universe hahahahha but I doubt if I will do well for it overall because the term test 2 (last Tuesday) was pretty tough.

This week:

Started studying for my finance paper on Tuesday while I was waiting for Justin at SMU 

Watched Interstellar on Wednesday - it is really good, good enough to make tears well up in my eyes :') And maybe because I just finished my paper on understanding the universe so I heard quite a number of familiar terms hahahha Oh and I started reading Gone Girl - the book is getting most of my attention, I'm not even playing Plants vs Zombies because I want to continue reading. 

Can't seem to remember what I did on Thursday. I think I stayed at home to study then went to school for a short presentation (a presentation I learnt nothing from and was just smoking through) then stayed for awhile to complete a homework so that I don't have to go to school just to hand it up the next day.

Then I met Jiayan on Friday for very late lunch and then we went over to Anchorpoint and spent quite some time in Typo. I bought 10 pieces of craft papers yay :D For $5!!!!! :) :) :) Happy because it was a good deal I got there and the papers are very nicely designed (I got like 3 or 4 map designed ones, like world maps, topographical maps, aerial maps). Then I also bought a dress for $20, not from Typo, Billabong. I can't wait to live alone and I foresee myself getting a lot of stuff from Typo hahahha 

Went over to SMU to study with Megz on Saturday. I was there at 11am till maybe 6pm, thought I could stay till 9 or 10 but I had dinner with the fam so~

While waiting for the download for "Boyhood" to be done, I shall go back to reading Gone Girl (I thought the movie was good so the book should be better).

Meh

I have a paper tomorrow but I was really distracted for the entire day which is weird because I was home alone so I guess I am my biggest distraction. Hopefully I won't fail tomorrow's physics paper.

So today, I tried baking some peanut butter cookies but I didn't have enough peanut butter so I added nutella to it. It was pretty easy and I didn't follow the exact measurements because I didn't want it to be too sweet. Then later in the evening, I felt so bored I wanted to go out and catch a movie by myself but nah, I sat myself through a 2 hour+ webcast then finished up with dinner then PVZ2 then Physics again.

Sigh I have so much to study. I'm going to start studying for my math mods after tomorrow's paper.

Thursday

I didn't get a good start to my day because of some random, extremely painful cramps >,< so I rolled in bed for awhile when I was supposed to be already changed and prepared to be leaving the house.

Anyway, that extreme discomfort lasted for nearly an hour or so then it stopped. Thus, I was late for lunch with Justin :/ We went to eat at Soup Spoon Union at Raffles City because I had some $40 Groupon voucher. Yay that made me happy because it feels good to know that you can just eat without having to worry that you're spending too much on food *inserts two dancing girls emoji*

My lunch date with an A&F model

I liked the option of being able to choose petite portions because I felt like eating the ramen from Soup broth asia and also the mushroom soup from Soup spoon. Justin ate burger (what's new~) and fries (because he said I like eating fries - but nope, not really, look at how close the fries were to Justin *inserts monkey covering its eyes emoji*). Check out my healthier option with the salad, ramen and a tiny mushroom pot pie (and a hot milk tea and a tiramisu titled "tearamisu" because it was tea-infused).

Caught a movie at Cathay after lunch and that's pretty much about it. I cannot decide if I should go to school tomorrow but I'll be going over to SMU to study for awhile in the afternoon(?)

Brief updates

Monday :

I had Jap buffet again today hahahah Our boss from the ice cream place treated JY and I to a buffet at Kuishin-bo. The lunch was about $40+/pax but she treated us anyway >,< and we bought her a card with "Most Generous Person award" written on the cover of the card because she is really that generous and kind. Spent close to 3 hours at the buffet then watched Gone Girl with JY. Idk why the tickets cost $12 per person and the arrangement of the seats in the theatre was all in pairs and idk if that's.... abnormal?

Met Hanrui after that because he wanted to pass me a gift and then we just chilled at Hoshino's for a bit. I'm so tired now. Shall do a bit of readings then go to sleep.

Thanks for taking the time to learn how to make macarons!! @Hanrui :)

Tuesday :

Went to school for just one tutorial then headed to SMU to look for Megz and stayed there until 11pm? I have too much to study. Thank God I finished some chapters.

Wednesday :

Attended my last tutorial for Physics and mathematical modelling then had lunch with Justin and went over to SMU again to Skype for TW's birthday and study.

I think I really go to SMU way more often than I go to NUS. TH just passed me some stuff she bought hahaha Yay I finally have an off-shoulder top that fits me and I got this disposable camera with nice films hehe I might play some PVZ2 while waiting for my hair to dry (I love the new bakchoy character hahahahha) and for Justin to be done so that we can surf Groupon together lolol

On my birthday

My 21st birthday creeped past silently and uninterestingly

It made me think, would it have been more celebratory if I actually threw a party or have some sort of gathering but then again, if it was only worth celebrating because I hosted an event to celebrate it, then how celebratory is it really? So I'm fine with it being uninteresting.

I probably don't make sense but that's alright, I don't always have to make sense.

It wasn't a bad kind of uninteresting although I know "uninteresting" has a negative connotation to it but it was just a normal, out-to-town day. It's not that I'm expecting people to pop out from random flower pots and surprise me with "happy birthdays" or anything really that surprising/special but it's just, I guess when it's your birthday, you kinda feel like something ought to be different - there has to be this thing that makes you feel like "oh it's really my birthday and oh I'm really just turned 21 today" (like if the years of your life were chartered as a graph with the age being on the x-axis and maybe wisdom/knowledge/whatever is on the y-axis, you'll expect to see some sort of turning point for the graph) but there wan't anything about today that made me feel that way - except for the fact that I had Justin constantly greeting me "happy birthday" hahaha

Although I had a very quiet and boring birthday, I'm glad I had my boyfriend there with me - at least there was somebody there who attempts to make me feel less sian about my birthday and who makes me feel loved. We spent the day watching a movie I wanted to watch and then we had dinner buffet at Kiseki so yep, today was just comfortable.

Went for Halloween Horror Night with TH, S and Justin yesterday and I have to say that it wasn't all that scary. We managed to go for all 4 haunted houses (the queue and waiting time were terrifying)  and took some chill Madagascar boat ride and then a more thrilling Mummy roller coaster ride (ok, maybe it wasn't that thrilling for everyone else on the roller coaster but I'm really quite scared of roller coasters so it was considered to be thrilling for me). Managed to see my  relative while walking through one of the haunted houses lolol Idk if he was supposed to be something scary but I recognized his voice so I called out to him and I think I distracted him from his post for approximately 2 seconds.

So glad this HHN thing wasn't awkward, if not it would have been the second most scary/disturbing thing of the event, with the queuing being the first.

HHN cut into the first 2-3 hours of my birthday and I guess I'm glad I got to spend the first few hours of my birthday with my boyfriend (who passed me my gift while we were queuing to enter our last haunted house :') ) and my really close friend.

HR's gonna meet me to pass me a gift later, yay +1 more friend who cares that it's my birthday. I think nowadays, even birthday messages seem a little too much to ask for but well, still thankful for my existing friends and my boyfriend who will do anything to make me happy hehe so I guess that will do more than just satisfy.

That should be it~

Finally meeting everyone else

Spent Friday going to school only to find out that I had no lessons

so I went over to ICF to look for Jiayan (since it was the last day for the shop and also because we were going out to town after that) and stayed there from about 2+ to 6+ then went for dinner with the rest at Paradise Dynasty. I was out for so many hours so I'm really dead beat.

Our boss was really really really nice to us. In addition to our pay for October, she added a generous amount of "token of appreciation" and she proposed to treat us to buffet sometime next week.

Thought of bringing Justin to meet my friends after his lessons and maybe towards the end of the dinner when we were all leaving to go home but he left school early so he didn't get to see them and they didn't get to see him and I didn't get to see him either.

Sigh I just wish for a painless 21st because my tooth is causing me pain again. I foresee an unpleasant 21st.